The Nightmare Room

Imagine a room where if you enter it, you could potentially be presented hours of horrific imagery, terrible memories, and the worst fears from the darkest of your psyche.  Sure, there is a chance you step in and maybe remember nothing from your time there, but when you leave you just feel that ‘something isn’t right’.  On the other hand, you could come out of the room with vague recollections of the horrors you experienced leaving you feeling like you were within inches from death for most of your time in the room.

Now imagine this… you have NO choice but to enter that room.  As a matter of fact, you must enter it every day.  What would it take for you to enter that room?  You could put off entering it but the longer you put it off the more intense the experience is.  Or you could take a pill to make you less likely to remember what you encounter in the room; to just help you sit in the room numb until the pill no longer works.  But, you must also be careful as some pills make the time there more horrific, more vivid, yet also trap you further into the room.

For me, that room is sleep.  This is my nightly reality, and it is hell.  The saddest thing is it wasn’t my choice or my doing that brought this upon me, yet it is my hell to deal with as a sufferer of C-PTSD.

Southern Whites

“The white people of the South are the greatest minority in this nation. They deserve consideration and understanding instead of the persecution of twisted propaganda.” – Strom Thurmond


People talk about fairness and special treatment. Well ponder this… Minneapolis PD “fast-tracked” an officer as they were in a hurry to show off their first Somali officer on the force. Well, that officer shot an Australian woman named Justine Damond and was later found guilty of 3rd Degree Murder.  

The thing was he wasn’t arrested for 8 months and while people held vigils and peaceful protests for Justine nobody rioted for her, looted stores, or even tried to bring Mohamed Noor’s ethnicity into the picture. She wasn’t being arrested, much less was she resisting, and she didn’t have fentanyl or meth in her system, much less both.  

She was afraid and in her pajamas and was shot by an officer that shouldn’t have been on the streets who was ill trained and responded incorrectly and this was found to be the case both criminally and civilly. When they finally arrested him after a delay of eight months, the Somali community demonstrated and screamed racism.  

Now we have the current case, where we have another MPD officer most likely either poorly trained, or he chose to ignore his training in restraint methods which may have contributed to a man’s death.  

How is it fair that he has already been found guilty by social media, celebrities, and politicians and is held up as an example for how all white cops are evil killers while Mohamed Noor remained free for eight months?  

People are being so easily played and falling all over themselves to prove how they are “not racist” and truth and justice are also a victim in this whole ordeal.

So we’re just making shit up now…

So in my monthly trip to a town to the North I happened to spy this individual wearing some patch I’d never seen from some “club” I’d never heard of nor could I locate any information on.


But I have to award points for originality in relation the “AR” instead of the “MC” square. The dude really did love his purple and yellow though as he had a get-back whip, paracord bracelet, and I’d venture to guess he even had purple and yellow Underoos.  Maybe he could be mistaken for a Lakers fan on a good day.

But the whole reason I had even paid attention to who came back to the bike in the first place was the plate which was “RAVENS”.  I had actually seen fake “RAVENS” shit before as it is an imaginary 1% club from an imaginary video game town of “Los Santos”.  But like “SAMCRO”, it spills into the real world.

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So maybe perhaps Bubba here had to give up his RAVENS MC gear and come up with a new schtick after coming across someone “real” at some point.  Maybe the AR is not in relation to his “territory” but rather this is another video game reference and he’s an “Augmented Reality” biker.

Honestly I don’t get what kind of person puts on this fake shit to get attention.  Is this the same ilk that pre-Sons of Anarchy would buy an old Crown Vic and then cruise around like a wannabe pig?

I guess to his credit, at least he didn’t join one of the local Iron Order “chapters” in the region that actually ride around here.  Definitely something they never openly did out West.  Makes me wonder if there is some sort of void in the land of Ozarkia where IO regularly shows up at local charity runs and the biggest clubs in the region are cop clubs.

Toto, we ain’t in California anymore.

You’re just {sinful,racist,sexist,homophobic,oppressive,…}

This is a lot deeper than most will care to read or even consider, but hey, there might be someone out there sick of constantly waking on eggshells to avoid being called {sinful,racist,sexist,homophobic,oppressive,…} who appreciates it therefore I share it.

Of course now days, they just go straight to “white supremacist” or “literally hitler”.

Inclusive, diverse, whatever the hell…

I often get pitched to apply for certain positions and usually I blow them off right away. But, I saw one that intrigued me from a very well know international manufacturer of expensive gadgetry featuring a fruit on them as an engineer of stuff I’m really good at and like doing (vague enough?)

But the first strike against it is since it’s a new team, I’d have to go to Oregon rather then remain here in the mountains telecommuting… *bzzt*.

The second and final blow was the “work culture” video started with a “female from another culture wearing a headscarf”.


Now I’ve gone though a *butt-load* of “inclusive” management stuff and can be compassionate to a variety of situations to a variety of peoples. But (and it’s a big one) one thing I’ve also noticed is what when a company goes too far with the “inclusive” stuff they end up hiring based on factors other than just capabilities and competence.

To me the problems with that are A) I’d get treated like crap for being the “old white dude” and B) I’d end up doing the work from the “diversity hires”. Been there, done that, no thank you ma’am.  Oh sorry, did I just assume gender?

L.E. vs the 2nd Amendment

In the article titled “Law Enforcement vs. the Second Amendment” at Townhall, they featured the following from a “Federal LEO”…

“I’m offended by your misleading ads on gun control rights. We need to pass the assault weapon law restricting the ownership and use. I’m a federal Law Enforcement officer who has been on both side of this contentious issue. I do not want to face criminals who out gun me. Your tactics are doing just that. Everyone killed by an assault rifle in the US should sue you for your political stand. You advocate a very dangerous position that does not serve the interest of public safety. Also, The second amendment does NOT give you the right to bear arms. That is given to US citizens in case law supporting the second amendment. The Second AMENDMENT gives you the right to bear arms in order to form a militia only. Once again you mislead the american public. This country will never repair it’s problems unless we can come together, find common ground. The Brady Bill was just that. Common ground. You need to find it in your heart what is best for this great country, not you own personal self interest.”

What’s best for this great country, not for someone’s personal self interest after saying he’s afraid of facing criminals who out gun him and that the interest of “public safety” (codeword for pigs) isn’t being served?  Well, this is all Bovine Splatter (BS, for those not familiar with agricultural terms), and pure regurgitation of the Party Propaganda.

I get sick of people who say “oh, Law Enforcement will never cooperate with the disarming of the American public.”  More Bovine Splatter.  These people are power drunk.  They are like the regular ol’ coworker that suddenly gets promoted, flips a switch, and then suddenly starts becoming a tool to all those who he once considered himself no better than.  Perceived power derived from nothing, and a simple questioning of this false authority results in punitive actions.

Yes, the porcine pukes will come for the guns of average citizens and are doing it already by villianizing key sections of the population.   If you aren’t aware that it is happening, ask people who live in housing projects, are in motorcycle clubs, or who are being subjected to the recent CA confiscation raids.  It is happening now.

Well armed tyrants

Outgunned my ass!


The law

The law, for some, is not a uniform instrument of justice but rather a blunt force trauma instrument to be used to batter opponents into silence. That is how the corrupt work. That is the corrupt have always worked. That is how the corrupt will continue to work.

With these people, the issues are never the issue, the issue is always power; the policies are never the policy, the policy is always control; and the laws are never the law, the law is always domination.  Understand this and you understand the murderous designs and totalitarian goals of the corrupt.

Just another dead rat


“Redemption? Sure. But in the end, he’s just another dead rat in a garbage pail behind a Chinese restaurant.”

Mr. Fox